Losing my voice

by John on June 22, 2012

I can’t stand watching the media coverage of the Sandusky trial. The jury verdict watch, the daily recap in the courtroom, the victim testimony. It’s becoming a bit much. As a parent, I don’t know how I’d react and deal with this issue if something like this happened to my girls.

There was one victim who made a comment about “Losing his voice” and that alone cut very deep on a very personal level.

The day my abuser tried to friend me on facebook… shock, disgust, fear… all the emotions came flooding back, the doubt, the shame, and I too felt my voice slipping away.

Pressing the block button was the first small step.

Writing this, the next.

The healing is slow, but it’s healing, and that’s what counts.

Tomorrow? Well, tomorrow the sun will rise; I’ll kiss my girls, and do my best to protect them.

I won’t let them lose their voice.

(This is one of the toughest things I’ve ever written. However, if you suspect or know of abuse taking place, please know that there are resources for victims and families. In South Florida, if you suspect child sexual abuse or would like information on the prevention of child sexual abuse please go here. On a national level, please check out the resources listed here)

{ 3 comments… read them below or add one }

Jennifer McClure June 28, 2012 at 12:09 pm

Thanks for sharing this John – and reminding us that we can take control of our voice and heal over time. {Hug.]

HR Minion June 28, 2012 at 1:26 pm

Oh dear, lots of hugs, it’s very strong of you to post this. Thank you.

Michael Krupa June 30, 2012 at 1:59 pm

Thanks for writing this. Very brave and a good way to not lose your voice.

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